There doesn’t have to be some big crazy reason for it to be sad I would be sad bc I would miss you there is only one nug KingChickenNug and I would miss that nug KingChickenNug
shal gets worried that I might be affected by the things they say in a /neg fashion but what they don’t get is I don’t pay attention about ever and forget things so easily
Shal ever so briefly alludes to the fact that not everything is perfect and thinks they broke everything which is in fact not the case bc I could have told you that at the fact that they are 15 and a daily twitter user
if you're an ass, people are going to be an ass back, but if you're not an ass that could result in people not being asses to you or them still being asses, for example
He took my phone and looked through it which lead to probably the most interesting argument I’ve ever had which was convincing him I was faking being trans for attention
I got everyone to call me a whole new irl name bc I don’t like my legal name specifically bc only he calls me it and now he calls me the name I like when he’s being transphobic lol
Personally I think I can’t dye my hair bc my parents don’t think that women can express themselves and have individuality but yk they would never say taht now would theyyyy
I have an entire list of things I can and cannot eat and how it can and cannot be killed all the way down to how the animal can and cannot be butchered and Christians can even not eat bacon this is a rip off (/lhj I am mad bc keeping kosher is ass)
i wanted to say "'what if, since jesus was a real person, that none of the bible is real and all of it is just fan-fiction about a random man' - me" but now that's ruined
Basically Judaism declares me as a religious adult
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And there’s like a whole thing for it it is a big deal
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Basically you spend your entire birthday at the synagogue which is like yk and people tell you about how old and mature you are and you have to give speeches and stuff
it's pointless to have family gatherings because it's my immediate family (being my parents, siblings, and maternal grandmother) and my paternal grandparents(edited)
have you heard hit podcast Chuckle Sandwich featuring hit knee-breaker Ted Nivison, hit Monkey Ball purchaser Jay Schlatt, and hit Goopy Guy Charlie Slimecicle?
He’s really shit he makes me watch his kid (baby not even a year old) he offered to house my grandmother when my grandfather died and then said that he didn’t mean it and it was an empty offer yeah stuff like that lmso
I’m absolutely terrified that I’m going to go to the doctors one day and they’re just going to tell me I’m dying bc of how long I decided not to go to the doctors
I’m absolutely terrified that I’m going to go to the doctors one day and they’re just going to tell me I’m dying bc of how long I decided not to go to the doctors
idk they made a few jokes that one time idfk I think they keep mocking people who use alternate pronouns like “did you just assume their gender????” in a mocking tone
I make gay jokes (nothing homophobic) but not anything transphobic but that's because I literally am both LMAo I think gay jokes are probs alright to make if you're gay
there are three: the fucking cishet who told me that i'm suicidal and emo bc i wanted to dye my hair pink and said that i would kill myself and also told the next one, and i quote, "That's why your so bad that your family divorced twice" over fucking fortnite, the fucking ball of energy who is chaotic and starts so many fights that it's crazy, usually with the first one, they both make jokes about saying the n-word (although neither of them are white but idk if that's okay and i don't want to comment on that because i am #FFFFFF white (dead white LMFAO)), and then the other one he's pretty cool he can be an ass sometimes but he's fine ig (he's the one i think is gay)(edited)
Yesterday I was told that when I put lol and lmao after things it seems like I am hiding my feelings so if that’s what it seems like pretend it’s not there
also just so you know me having your state, the fact that your school was on the news, and the fact it was for a gas leak would probably make it easy for me to find it (but you see I don't care enough to doxx you so)
Dhdhdhys nug apparently there are parental controls on my switch bc I can’t even view omori on my switch like when I click on it it says the im not elegible to view it lmao
My parents went “how strict are we going to be” and then blindly filled out the bubbles on what they would be strict on and what they wouldn’t be strict on
Pick some stuff (favorite color, scenarios, your relationship with your parents) and I'll assign you a friend of mine along with the same brand of trauma they have. Don't take this seriously though.
a lot of these are close “has been put in a mental hospital” haven't but should be “undiagnosed adhd” I've been diagnosed “arson is cool” better than nothing tbh “bullied” that one time doesn't count that was like fourth grade “was into medieval torture methods” if I knew what they were then probably
lol I'm obsessed anyway follow me @starlilydust on pinterest for high quality memes also cw for suicidal ideation, dark themes, and other common themes in the album
my train of thought was "i have to sneeze. wait, the last time i sneezed i gooped up my arm. wait, my hoodie is on my arm." and then i tried to pull down my sleeve and had to stifle it
my train of thought was "i have to sneeze. wait, the last time i sneezed i gooped up my arm. wait, my hoodie is on my arm." and then i tried to pull down my sleeve and had to stifle it
There’s this sub at my school and she really likes me she calls me sweetie and stuff and like obsessively complements me and once she told me she would buy me for more than 17 dollars
She’s so funny she likes to comment on where I live bc it’s not a super safe area and she says she feels bad for me bc I live there like okay I do not care
Okay so she was my sub in English once and we were writing memoirs and she asked what I was writing mine on and I said I didn’t know bc my life was boring and she goes “well that’s a good thing yk some kids have parents who are in jail and stuff”
Istg they act like it happened then and there like my dad is a felon now and he was a felon 10 minutes ago before you knew too this is not new information to me
Most of my room I can reach from my bed if I need something and it’s out of reach I can try to pull it towards me with my cane (yes haha old Ik) and if I need to go to my closet I sit in my desk chair and push myself over there lol
I have so much energy today for no reason but not like “ooooo complete tasks energy” nah just like jump around for no reason energy which I can’t do bc it hurts lmao
"In mathematics, a parabola is a plane curve which is mirror-symmetrical and is approximately U-shaped. It fits several superficially different mathematical descriptions, which can all be proved to define exactly the same curves."
hey, i'm probably gonna take a break from twitter/discord until like the 30th, if you need anything my instagram is kingchickennug, you can dm me on that
I requested on an account for my brothers stuffed animal bc I don’t have an actual Instagram lmao so it’s like person the alligator or something that’s me
Would you like me to directly tell you everytime I need you? Because I will o don’t like to bc I don’t want to stress you out but if you need it to feel needed then I will/gen
my family is having money problems and despite having a farm that doesn't break even my mom won't sell any animals and has just had more goat kids, some to keep istg
you ever sit and realize that your entire online presence was living behind a mask in one way or another and now that the facade is up to both the mask and the person behind it you realize that you're scared as hell of everything or is that just me
it's so funny because I have a female irl and her parents don't want me talking to her (I look talk and act (sometimes) like a cishet amab) when I have no weird intentions (I'm literally aroace)
I was texting gabe the other day and smiling and my stepmom went “are you texting a boyyyy?” Like yes but he is gay and under the impression that I’m a girl
No but im sure they could ^^ im not allowed to dye my hair even though both of my younger brothers are because “god wouldn’t want me to change my body”
See my mom would make me do activities and at first she just put me in dance and then I was like no so she put me in swimming and then soccer and then softball and then acting and then softball again and then Jesus Christ Can I have a break
actually correction she didn't give up I'm “working” at a place on Wednesday nights and then going to a thing at the same place right after and I'm going to start guitar lessons soon
We were sitting there and I was with my band teacher and they were still announcing awards and shit and I just tapped her shoulder and showed it to her and she offered to have it fixed for me but I said it was fine
I have just found a new headcanon: in a thing that I watch, there's a cow who’s entire thing is “i’m a real man” and my headcanon is that he’s trans as fuck
I need a bit but I don't know how to stop fucking thinking so here I am
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I just need closure and an idea what to do but the three people who could help have, in order, done the thing that I'm stressing over, gone to bed, and tried and failed(edited)
In mid august a close friend started to reach out to me and started to express to me that egg/Wilbur had been saying things that were making them uncomfortable
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On august 24th I told this friend that they could not remain being friends with Wilbur
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Wilbur had bpd and this person was Wilbur’s favorite person (bpd term look it up if you need to)
If you see this no obligation to read it obviously. This is more for my peace of mind than it is truly for you to read. If you do read it and still think I’m being sensitive that’s fine.
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Also this is by no means me calling you an awful person you’re not. Im tired of everyone in this situation acting like any of us are fundamentally awful beings for things we did when we were 14-15
i was going to send something with two million words in it but all I have to say is this: I'm sorry. what I did was completely fucked up and in no way your fault. I just didn't see it at the time and I'm really sorry. i’d be cool to just pretend this never happened if it's all the same to you (though it’s cool if you don't want to speak to me anymore)
It’s okay I get it you were really stressed and I get that honestly I wasn’t even truly mad until you started doubling down with shal and that’s what really confused me because it all seemed so out of character for you. I would be down to just pretending like this never happened tbh I’ve missed you a lot and I’d be lovely for one damn thing to be normal-ish these days lmao.
Did you come on to this account to apologize and then saw the letter thingy or did you read the letter and then want to apologize? (This has basically nothing to do with anything I just want to know the effectiveness of my stupid letter)
that’s more complicated of a question than you might think: I saw the fact that you sent a message, skimmed through it, realized I fucked up, and thought what I should say in the shower
Fair, I originally wasn’t going to sent it and yesterday I sent it to an anonymous forums thing and took all the names out (like unsent project type thing) and I thought that was gonna be it and then I woke up this morning and was like fuck it